2025-07-27 12:00:20.082

The author shares a deeply personal and emotional account of the stillbirth of her son, Mo. The narrative begins with the unexpected golden glow of the weeks following Mo's birth, a stark contrast to the pain and confusion of the delivery itself. She describes a negative experience with a dismissive midwife, and the horrifying moment she learned Mo had died. The author details the difficult decision of meeting her stillborn son, the emotional rollercoaster of holding him, and the subsequent process of saying goodbye. She reflects on the overwhelming grief, guilt, and self-doubt that followed, including obsessive questioning of her actions during pregnancy and labor. The narrative also highlights the support of her husband and friends, her gradual healing process, and the eventual acceptance of her loss. The piece poignantly concludes with a visit to Mo's grave on his second birthday, marking a shift towards healing and the enduring love for her son.

2025-07-27 00:00:24.042

The author shares the story of her son Mo's death during delivery. She describes the surreal golden glow of the days following Mo's death, the unexpected hormonal surge, and the difficult labor experience marked by a dismissive midwife. The discovery of Mo's death was devastating, and the author describes her initial numbness and the difficult decision of whether or not to meet her stillborn son. The decision to meet Mo proved to be a profound moment, allowing for a connection despite the tragedy. The author details the C-section, meeting Mo, and the emotional process of saying goodbye. She reflects on the challenges of grieving, the guilt and self-blame, and the constant reminders of Mo's absence. The author also describes the healing process, the support of friends and family, and the eventual acceptance of Mo's death. She highlights the unexpected humor and moments of joy found in the midst of grief, and concludes by celebrating Mo's life and the enduring love for her son.